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Ok. So long I never blog till I forgotten how to start blogging. **Serious**
Do you know why I stop sharing here. Reason why I stopped blogging…

1. Life bored..
fine. My life real bored. If I blog about it, it will only makes everyone felt the same as well. You will gonna end everything or whack me or you might try to light up my life.

2. No enjoyment
my heart doesn’t have those enjoyment I am searching. Those roller coasters were so outdated. Is time to blog some stable life, since my life wasn’t stable so did my blog. It lack of something merry. and so i stopped...

3. Main reason..
frankly am very lazy nowadays. My brain doesn’t function well. It didn’t produce words at all. And my fingers have problem in typing. So I give myself a break.

That’s it!

-- The end –

so short and it makes you feel like whacking me?
Do you know, is five in the morning and am trying so hard to update you my life.
the effort is priceless

my brain really wasn’t working, because all I can think of is YOU!
Heading to bed now.. Good morning everyone.
* tata *

btw lets share my new games of photography
taken with my toy by LX3 *heart'it



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张信哲 - 九月雨

Story of my September's life...

九月的雨它掩盖了圆月
那是谁流的眼泪
不在乎是谁的不告而别
不管那悲伤属于谁
从来没跟你谈论过永远
也从没想过何谓离别
然而在这漆黑的九月
剩我在雨中站了一整夜
凭什么这样把你带走
留下乌云缠绕在我心头
给我个理由让我接受
我已经失去了所有就松开双手
那是九月雨水我已经不懂流泪
所谓的疼痛伤悲我却没有感觉
遥望天的漆黑你是否身在那边
俯瞰着我的脸摇头笑笑说这也是永远
寒风刺骨我痛彻心肺
从今后我一个人睡
不需要再靠酒精来麻醉
我夜夜狂饮我的伤悲
黑色的月亮挂天上
照耀我消瘦的脸庞孤单的模样
那是九月雨水我已经不懂流泪
所谓的疼痛伤悲我却没有感觉
遥望天的漆黑你是否身在那边
俯瞰着我的脸摇头笑笑说这也是永远
不要再给我安慰我的心早就已经粉碎
说了再多也挽不回
有谁能够为我倒转那时间
回到从前当你还在我身边
那是九月雨水我已经不懂流泪
所谓的疼痛伤悲我却没有感觉
如何回去从前如何才能够让你回到我的身边
在九月雨水没降下以前
在九月雨水没降下以前...

to my unanswered why that doesn’t need an answer anymore

Frankly if you ask me, I really want to know the truth.
I don’t want to die without knowing why!! Do u?
I believe everything happened for a reason…
And what’s the reason behind all the irresponsible evil’s act?
Was trying to figure out myself..
I know by doing this, all I could get is still the same.
There’s million of question running thru my brain cells.
What the bloody hell happens to God creates so-call-human behaviour???
Everything was still here unanswered!!!
I wanted to know why yet I don’t want to know yet..
When the time arrives, I know the answer will come.
And aren’t some question is better left unanswered?
I guess it was right.. Let’s wait..
One day where I finally don’t even remember your name anymore…

a long break

I need a break, perhaps a long break for myself.
I believed things happened for a reason.
I seriously knew I need self-realization.
And I understood some words are better left unsaid.

Vnie.Wong

nah!! at last! not long ago, was in a sudden addictive to “Innocence by Avril Lavigne”, perfect songs to make me peaceful. Wonder why? never try to found out, that’s the feeling where heart is soft and warm. that’s the weakest yet amazing part of me… so, here I was thinking on posting that youtube out. mood turning down when found out I cant do it, not that I don’t want, is that I cant do it.. I mean i dun even have a realplayer in my pc. my addictive is killing me, so I think nothing and start searching for the lyric. at last! thou no music video, everything still ok. :)

>__<


waking up i see that everything is ok
the first time in my life and now it's so great
slowing down i look around and I am so amazed
i think about the little things that make life great

i wouldn't change a thing about it
this is the best feeling

this innocence is brilliant
i hope that it will stay
this moment is perfect
please don't go away
i need you now
and i'll hold on to it
don't you let it pass you by

i found a place so safe, not a single tear
the first time in my life and now it's so clear
feel calm, i belong, i'm so happy here
it's so strong and now i let myself be sincere

i wouldn't change a thing about it
this is the best feeling

this innocence is brilliant
i hope that it will stay
this moment is perfect
please don't go away
i need you now
and i'll hold on to it
don't you let it pass you by

it's a state of bliss, you think you're dreaming
it's the happiness inside that you're feeling
it's so beautiful it makes you wanna cry
it's a state of bliss, you think you're dreaming
it's the happiness inside that you're feeling
it's so beautiful it makes you wanna cry

it's so beautiful it makes you wanna cry
this innocence is brilliant
makes you wanna cry
this innocence is brilliance
please don't go away
cause i need you now
and i'll hold on to it
don't you let it pass you by

this innoncence is brilliant
i hope that it will stay
this moment is perfect
please don't go away
i need you now
i'll hold on to it
don't you let it pass you by

a moment

17th July 2009

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could u remember tis moment? moment where’s everything seems to give hopes? when the hearts seem to be bumping faster than usual? and there’s things around was uncertain? where clouds turn dark.. where u hardly concentrate? that’s the moment of time transition. a moment of self-discovery to self-improvement for a better someone discloses for future.

marks everything i do'

moment of perfection

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i dunno..

Don’t ask me what I am going to write this time. If you notice me, you should’ve notice about my blog. I never been updating or sharing anything special here. I found it lazy to write, or lets say like this. I don’t know what I should write. But since is been long enough for me to left it all grows mushrooms. Perhaps I just upload some of the latest picture and places I hung out with my girlfriends.

Me at Massion on MK Bidgday >_<

Laundry wit my girlfriends..

Us in Massion - MK bigday

at Bubba Gump Shrimp ~ de Curve

am fadiinnggg~

**my heart is fading without you**

You talk to me
You speak with me
Don't sink before you rise baby
Don't fade away

You hesitate
You seem to wait
For all the time we had
Feels like a world away

Who's to say, we'll be ok
We will make it through the night
Don't wanna wake up in this state
I just want us both to smile

Cause we're the same
And i know that we'll never change
Look i bought your favourite ice cream
I dont wanna see it melt away

If you walk out now
I don't know if we could be the same
Baby just talk with me
Cause i want you to stay here with me

The memories
The things we did
I locked inside my heart
Where i know i won't forget

And now, who's to say, we'll be ok
We will make it through the night
Don't wanna wake up in this state
I just want us both to smile

Cause we're the same
And I know that we'll never change
look I bought your favorite ice cream
I don't want to see it melt away

If you walk out now
I don't know if we could be the same
Baby just talk with me
Cause I want you to stay here with me

I want you to stay here with me

Kids are Quick~

~Laugh with me~
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TEACHER: Maria, go to the map and find North Am erica ..
MARIA: Here it is.
TEACHER: Correct. Now class, who discovered America ?
CLASS: Maria.
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TEACHER: John, why are you doing your math multiplication on the floor?
JOHN: You told me to do it without using tables.
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TEACHER: Glenn, how do you spell 'crocodile?'
GLENN: K-R-O-K-O-D-I-A-L'
TEACHER: No, that's wrong
GLENN: Maybe it is wrong, but you asked me how I spell it.
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**This is funnie... Love tis**
TEACHER: Donald, what is the chemical formula for water?
DONALD: H I J K L M N O.
TEACHER: What are you talking about?
DONALD: Yesterday you said it's H to O..
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TEACHER: Glen, why do you always get so dirty?
GLEN: Well, I'm a lot closer to the ground than you are.
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TEACHER: Millie, give me a sentence starting with 'I.'
MILLIE: I is..
TEACHER: No, Millie..... Always say, 'I am.'
MILLIE: All right...... 'I am the ninth letter of the alphabet.'
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TEACHER: George Washington not only chopped down his father's cherry tree, but also admitted it. Now, Louie, do you know why his father didn't punish him?
LOUIS: Because George still had the axe in his hand.
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TEACHER: Clyde , your composition on 'My Dog' is exactly the same as your brother's. Did you copy his?
CLYDE : No, sir. It's the same dog.
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TEACHER: Harold, what do you call a person who keeps on talking when people are no longer interested?
HAROLD: A teacher

Kelly Clarkson - “My Life Would Suck Without You”

Guess this means you’re sorry

You’re standing at my door

Guess this means you take back

What you said before

Like how much you wanted

Anyone but me

Said you’d never come back

But here you are again

Cuz we belong together now

Forever united here somehow

You got a piece of me

And honestly

My life would suck without you

Maybe I was stupid for telling you goodbye

Maybe I was wrong for tryin’ to pick a fight

I know that I’ve got issues

But you’re pretty messed up too

Either I found out I’m nothing without you

Cuz we belong together now

Forever united here somehow

You got a piece of meAnd honestly

My life would suck without you

Being with you is so dysfunctional

I really shouldn’t miss you, but I can’t let you go

Oh yeahCuz we belong together now

Forever united here somehow

You got a piece of me

And honestly

My life would suck without you

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penser à vous

"souhaiter il être une autre inattendu peut-être. Comme moi faire oser en laisser n'importe qui savoir comment moi en fait sensation. Comment moi en fait regretter et penser à vous très de les heure. Il être tellement cruel les manière vous marcher de l'autre côté silencieux et venire de retour sans responsabilité. Faire vous savoir comment très moi haine amoureux vous?" Vnie~

Lets start from here - Joanna Wong

My home pc hav no realplayer too. Siao, forgotten I never touch anything / download anything after brought it back from wad. Is midnite 1am, dun really hav enuff strength and mood to download now. Bcuz I wanted to lay my body on bed asap. BUT I really cant wait to share tis with everyone here. Is a real nice song which mixed with nice and soft music + superb meaningful lyric.

(Yeap, it sung my heart out.)

Lets wait when I hav enuff strength and time and mood as well, I will download the ‘Britain got talent’ & Lets start from here to you guys.

here the lyrics

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Giving up, why should I

Have come too far to forget

Beautiful, just got lost

Somewhere along the way

So much was missing when you went away

Let’s start from here, lose the past

Change our minds, we don’t need a finish line

Let’s take this chance, don’t think too deep

All those promises we couldn’t seem to keep

I don’t care where we go
Let’s start from here

Standing here, face to face

A finger on your lips

Don’t say a word, don’t make a sound

Silence surrounds us now

Even when you were gone

I felt you everywhere

Let’ start from here, lose the past

Change our minds, we don’t need a finish line

Let’s take this chance don’t think too deep

Of all those promises we couldn’t seem to keep

I don’t care where we go

Let’s start from here

Let’s start from here

I’ve never been the one to open up

But you’ve always been the voice within

The only one for my cold heart

Let’s start from here, lose the past

Change our minds, we don’t need a finish line

Let’s take this chance, don’t think too deep

And of all those promises

Let’s start from here, lose the past

Change our minds, we don’t need a finish line

Let’s take this chance, don’t think too deep

Of all those promises we couldn’t seem to keep

I don’t care where we go

Let’s start from here

Let’s start from here

Let’s start from here, Let’s start from here...

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Just wonder why we need to think too deep for it? As human really couldn’t seem to keep those promises, so what it is for? Why not just give it a damn try, lose those past, takes this chance and just start from here. Who really care for the finish line? As long as we take the chances, try for it with no regret after all. WHY?!

"I Dreamed a Dream" ~ Les Miserables

There was a time when men were kind
When their voices were soft
And their words inviting
There was a time when love was blind
And the world was a song
And the song was exciting
There was a time
Then it all went wrong

I dreamed a dream in time gone by
When hope was high
And life worth living
I dreamed that love would never die
I dreamed that God would be forgiving
Then I was young and unafraid
And dreams were made and used and wasted
There was no ransom to be paid
No song unsung, no wine untasted

But the tigers come at night
With their voices soft as thunder
As they tear your hope apart
And they turn your dream to shame

He slept a summer by my side
He filled my days with endless wonder
He took my childhood in his stride
But he was gone when autumn came

And still I dream he'll come to me
That we will live the years together
But there are dreams that cannot be
And there are storms we cannot weather

I had a dream my life would be
So different from this hell I'm living
So different now from what it seemed
Now life has killed the dream I dreamed.

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(**Im trying to upload Britian’s Got talent’s show from youtube here, juz wanted everyone to share it with me. Only to found out my laptop doesn’t have realplayer. OMFG! Wasted my time! Yea 2nd week of the month, I definitely is kind of free (perhaps is over free I can say), still I don’t like to waste time doing things that wasting my time. Siao oredi! FYI, juz fyi im actually blogging in office. Shh.. let no body know about it. Is kinda hard to write at home actually, seem trouble to concentrate. Every time when I started to write my bed lured me. SERIOUS!!! Lets continue, But anyway, I promised will upload another blog with the Britian Got Talent youtube on it.**)

Everyone had a dream, so do Susan Boyle. A 47yrs old Scottish charity volunteer has become an unlikely international media sensation after a stunning talent show performance “Britain’s Got Talent”. She proved us, no matter what, as long as we work on it, our dreams one day will come true. Yes never give up on something we are dreaming. Stand up if you’ve given up on something and work for it now. Why should we cared what’s other think of it? Never judge a book by its cover. I don’t need your judgment, so please leave me alone.

Blank

I feel abandoned recently, im lost to somewhere I guess. Cant seem to get along with anyone, yea I mean everyone around me. I kind of feeling lost track with communication system. Perhaps what ‘JC’ said is right, im too into me again. I somehow found the answer with the problems after hiding myself for weeks. Is time to unlock myself and hang out again.

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Im middle in learning something new, this is the process of growing up, isn’t us? I love it even it is kinda cruel. To learn the trusting games again is something hard. Is something of either you win or lose in gamble. Learned, never bet your whole properties on one thing. Learn to invest. ;P

Who would give up of learning being a better person? How many people would give up just because the process is cruel? I dunno.. at least I wont and never. You might say im silly, but whose will give up on herself. Life is a process of learning. Im learning, how about you?

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Enjoying the Trouble of some memory lost. Kekee..
You hear me right, am really enjoying.
You kept reminding me of everything, which I never recall of.
Dramatic that bring sweetness *
I wonder if its my memory lost or the fake story?
Still I love it**

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* Shhh... *

I dreamt I was there,
After a long exhausted ride,
I wish I were there,
Bring me together,
I promised I will be good,
I will fight to the end,
My dream, my wish,
Some days it will come.

"Love is the hardest drug to quit, but it is even harder when it is taken away."

Feeling stress?

Living in 20th century, whose hav no burden and stress? I bet everyone does. Who can run away from it? But God created us with the ability to create or seek happiness ourselves. Bet everyone had their own way to release stress. Hanging with someone I love would make me temporary forget the burden and stress. (I know is temporary, but at least I am living in the moment. I truly enjoy things I got involved, even doing nothing with my families at home) I just love how great my families and friends makes me easily forget things that I am unhappy with.

Okay not to run from topic, I was checking on my daily mails and this fwd email pop-out and make me laugh silliness myself. (Hope my colleagues didn’t notice me laughing. Keke. Sometime she would ask, why re you laughing? Yes I laugh a lot myself, really a lots when I online / msn. “Dorjeh Mrs. Tan a.k.a El and Mrs. Chong a.k.a Mk”, you two amoi, now my colleagues will stay far farrr away from me) Opps, so sorry run out of topic again. Let’s continue. I think it was kind to simple but it succeed makes me laugh myself. Roll my eyeball to left, trying to see if she sees me laugh. I felt bad, why I am always the one behaving weird?! So I decided to forward the mail to one of my buddy, trying to make him laugh himself in office. Hahaa so I wont look that weird anymore. **So happy.

Guess what? He doesn’t have any reaction lor. Mission failed. Sad… it proved I am really weird girl.

Check it here; Fw: Why teachers need that one month holiday while others don't.

Are you laughing? If yes, pls don’t tell me you re laughing me for being weird.

Below is the two I laugh my voice out.. *shy* Tell me im normal..

Conclusion, I really can cheer easily or i really weird!!?

Journey to Office

Week before, I was craving for some rains drop. It finally came.

This Morning it was a heavy rain.. Road is slippery along the highway. Along the way, I saw few accidents. Some is damn serious.. It really freaks me out.

I am thankful for giving opportunity to stay alive. I was actually driving thru Kerinchi-link, and supposed the road is very smooth. Out of a sudden, everyone jamm break and I am pressing breaks too. I cant really recall anything, but all I remember is my car is stil behaving good. Only awhile later I found my car was then swinging left and right, right and left. It was going to turn-over at that moment. The sterling is out of control.. I almost bang to the wall and left car of mine. Trying to focus.. and after 2-3minutes, everything back to normal.

Malaysian Culture is really everywhere lor, then only I noticed everyone jamm break to see what actually happened / what the car plate involves in the accident. MH ah!!! Cant really understand them.

Okay I am here to express my gratitude for giving chances for second live. I will gonna love myself, my families and my friends even more. I LOVE MY LIVE and you.. Muacks~

Back to work la, bye!

Hard Work

“To see is incredible easy, to do is indescribable hard”
SO the next time when you see something nice, think every hard work the person invested. Nothing good comes in an easy way.. even the tiny little blog they created. Is real Complicated, at least for me! :D

When life started to get bored, everything that involves makes you bored too. And it counts no matter on what, even with my blog too. Ahheem.. I guess I should make a new outfit for my blog. Lets wait. No, im going to make some changes to everything, from life to fashion to hairdo to everything about me. Meanwhile im still addicted with sleeping games. Is kinda new life to me, I am a superb terrible sleeper. Who can beat my record? I had been sleeping for more than 12hours every day. Counting down is already 2weeks. I seem like not getting enough sleep no matter how much I sleep. Help me! Damn, I am wasting too much time with Mr. Chow recently. He might start to get annoyed about me. Okay, should move on with some others new stuff. Stay tune, lets wait together with me. BUT First things I need to settle, clean up my mess, my room are new storeroom feel to me. And I been neglected my charger at the camera shop for months, I should have picked it up tomoro. There’s still a lot pending stuff in my to-do-list, before I make any changes, I should clear my mess. And end up, life still maintain the same….

Sleepless Notes

I cant sleep. Guess I been sleeping too much on mc day. Back from Singapore almost 1 week jor. Dont really have chances to talk n chat with everyone, most of the time are ‘on de run’. Is really liked running trip, no joking! Found out i really not suitable living there. Perhaps something is missing there on me. Serious! Or maybe I love msia too much. Wahahaa.. funny ler? I bet I missing out some kaki-s over there. Guess yourself lor, im not going to reveals anything any details. Hehee

Is actually a trip which I had promised my dearest for more than 2 years. Im Suck, need to beg me for holiday some more. Hahaa.. Is my fault, but when I think of Singapore I feel sick. This one cannot, that one cannot. I rather live in hell. And I don’t really like some Singaporean. Sorry if it offends anyone but I really don’t like them. Ok for whatever reason, just ignore this. It might be something to do with every Singapore thingy I had gone thru.

Hmm.. Guess what?!! I paused for few minutes, trying to think what I should write next. Arrr… Hmmm… You know is 422am, my brain probably had shutdown. And how you want me continue with the lame Singapore story. Something stuck there..

Okay time to move on. I know I should try to sleep. Oh, if you want to see those Singapore picture please view thru my fb. I love comment too ;P

** in the bus **

Btw, im bored with current lifestyle. I want something New, Different, Challenging, Out of Ordinary, Special, Marvelous and Definitely a good one. Any idea? TRICKY ler? I know, if not I wont be asking you for help lorr.

The Curse-Chain

THE-CURSE-CHAIN, what it is actually? Curse chain is those fwd mail or text from someone that brings curse if you did not send to some amount of ppl. Let me give you some example here;

E.g. One (1):
“Good Luck, Good Love & Happiness will always stay close with you. Send it to 18 peoples, if you delete this mail/msg Bad Luck will keep coming to you.”

E.g. Two (2):
“God please send an angel to protect the one who re reading this mail/msg. They re the most beautiful person I Love most. Ok now send it to 8 peoples you love the most or else…blaa bla blaa”

Hey come on, if you love this person so much why still send those sms or mail to curse them? I mean ya, you definitely ask God to bless them from harm and stay safe, ONLY IF they fwd the mail/msg to others.

Honestly i hate these kind of mail or msg. It does make me feel uneasy. If you truly bless me wit your heart, you wont be sending me these mail/msg. Some even stated ‘if you delete this mail, you will have BAD LUCK for 6 years.” DAMN IT!! And some even worst, “if you do not send it to 8 peoples, your families / father / mother / siblings will die within xxx days” WTH izzit??!

Okay, normally if it states is all referring to my own self, I definitely will delete it straight away. So what will you do if it refers to your close one? Will you delete it or fwd this ignoring mail to your friends and make them curse you back in heart? My answer: I will fwd to others and definitely I will delete some contain in the mail. Those cursing words, I really don’t feel like sending it to my friends but I have no choice. See, it hurts no one.

So to anyone who read this please pull my name out from those mail / msg you fwd. I don’t need this kind of blessing, thx! By right I should feel happy because im blessed by you, but I won’t okay. It will only make me frustrated and you re making me irritated. STOP doing these irritating things anymore.

"Don’t spam my mailbox. My mailbox is for those who really love Me"

Old Blog

I guess Lazy disease is somehow come back to me. I find it hard what suppose to drop down. Hmm.. How about my so-called roller-coaster’s life? No it’s gone, life is peaceful now. Is too peaceful and it make me feel life bored. I am back to 9 to 5 job and am back to healthy life too. Waked 630am and sleep around 11++pm. I preferred spending time with my families and girlfriends on weekend, rather to rock the club…. YES I know! I know, even my blog is bored too.

I am not sure was it true, I am feeling different now. Everything changed, from my taste of food to taste of cloths, from thinking to the way I acted and behave. Is real hard to express how I am feeling but it gave me a good beginning I guess. Is a good feeling I can say. I am someone *NEW again. ## Big Grin on my face!

Ok since I hv nothing better to express and my bored-life-blog make you gonna bang your head to toilet-bowl, guess you can have a view on my old blog. Ya I let it grow mushroom independently for so long. I never knew I can write poems, hahaahhaa I am cancer-girl ok, don’t blame me. BLAME my horoscope. Ok let you ll have a quick peek on it. Enjoy yourself..

http://wyuene.blog.friendster.com/

de ex-in-law

Would you still keep in touch with your ex-in-law after the break up? Wonder am I making the right decision? I been ignoring of meeting up for few times and since the ex in law seem never give up. So here the dinner goes.

I am on the way going to fetch them. Guess what so funny? I cant remember the actual road to ex house. One year not exactly a long period, but I swear I was turning into the wrong junction for few times. Lolz.

Perhaps dinner and chat was juz normal, nothing special. After dinner, they invited me to go over their house to chat. I was thinking to say ‘no’ but failed. Hmm.. and it wasn’t really a good idea. I been cursed from there, I never been happy living in the house. It brought back those nightmares and I swear would never be in that house ever again. I swear!

Lesson learned: Never keep in touch with your ex-in-law after the break up even how hard they begged you to meet up.

By: VeenieWong

Random crazy-ness

We never know if we never been in the situation ourselves. We never learn if the world wasn’t cruel. We never know everything have a dateline if we never set it go. We never know whose gonna love us if we never give chances. We never know how strong our heart is if we never been hurt. We never know what is important if we never lose it. We never know if we never try… what if we did try darn hard?!

OK im not in a good condition to blog right now. I been away lately to somewhere I shouldn’t be. Dragging myself to fact and here im, blogging nonsense again. Yes I been emotionally lately, blame it on weather. Its always not my fault to behave emotionally. (my bro in law said, blame it on whatever or whoever, dun blame it on yrself)YES weather’s fault. Haahahaa..

Oh. To those who dunno, my dear Mr. JC (*my lovely PC) is back after admitting to ICU for month. After weeks he been sent home, only to found out the heart transfer wasn’t as success as expected. So I decided to send him for another heart transfer. Hopefully this time he wont be away for too long.

After month of not integrate wit IT World, found out im still surviving. Never know I could do so well with no Mr.JC around for month. Hmm.. back to 10yrs, I wasnt using any IT things oso, opss no.. suppose back to 20yrs ago. I started missing those days..

Lets have some update about me. One month wasn’t long, 4weeks, 28days, 1344hrs… OK not blogging for 1344hrs so far. Short moment but gone thru alot. First thing, I gonna start work on 1st April. I really wish it wasn’t an April Fool Jokes. Second thing, I finally perm my hair, is nice but is hard to maintain. Kind of wasting my time… hmm wat else? Think you guys never wan to find out more, it boredom. Or say give me some privacy, thanks.

You know when you re emotionally down, you dun really feel like sharing. What the purpose for sharing if it never can help. Useless!! I gone thru things myself, I shared with those close around me, I learn from things and facts. Everything maintained and ends up you re still facing all those shit alone. So I rather keep silent, is the best things we should do.

Next thing, I miss you. What the heck was wrong wit the karma? Sent me the bill, I ll pay off all the debt in one lump sum. Oh is 3AM, slept for 5hrs after back from office. I had been sleeping a lot lately, best thing to do without MR.JC around. I wonder what’s so interesting about it that makes you still reading. Hopefully my bullshit-ing never makes you dull. Ahh.. if it never bored, pls keep track on my next coming blog. Never know what would it be, is depends on my mood.

OK gotto take off. Pls do not take this blog seriously, never take crazy person words as real. Hehehee.. Juz ignore it. Thanks!

*Notes: dear crazy babe, not every separation is worst. Some gives us a brighter future. There is where we belong, to be what worth for us to live. Only times will tell. I’ll be here for you always. cheers

With love, VeenieWong

Friendship

What are friends mean to you?

To me, friends are relation that has survived the trials and tribulations of time and still remained unconditional. True friendship shares unique blend of affection, loyalty, love, respect, trust and loads of fun. Friend is indeed a rare treasure which we should cherish.

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15 years relationship

First student I knew in secondary school. We seat next to each for year. As what others said, real friendships need to survive thru tests and times to find out what friends mean. Yes we gone thru those and I am really grateful to have her back in my life. The tests and times definitely make us to cherish each other more than ever.

One thing I can’t decline, she is one whose care my feeling most (Yes you are, if you’re reading this) She is one of the best person to share my thoughts and feelings because she is the best counseling, because she cares and because she always want the best happen to me (I know it even she never tell me so)

We don’t meet often but we do call to update the latest things of us. I wonder, when friendship turns to years is it we will meet up less than we used to. But I still love to have the long conversations with her every now and then.

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13 years relationship

How many 13 years someone had? She is my evil twins since secondary day. In fact we have nothing in common. We totally have different taste from fashion to food, studies to boys, and dreams to goals. Yet we still maintain our relation till now days, one main reason because we respect and love each others.

There’s uncountable thick and thin we had gone thru. And it makes us stronger in each others heart even thou we never meet often. There’s one magical thing about us, we understand each needs and wants without saying it. She is one and only person whose will support me and stand still on my side no matter what I decide to do, no matter is right or wrong. She is really supportive but spoils me.

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6 years relationship

Never know is been 6 years now. Can’t imagine we gone thru this, I mean just like this and 6 years had past. Hehee.. I am trying to say we have a very peaceful relation. We once were colleagues 3 or 4 years back.

Honestly with her I had the most peaceful yet valuable relationship ever. We never quarrel but we have different opinion, we share our ups and downs. And she is another one of the best person to share my thoughts and feelings. (If you want to know me better, kidnapped her and I am sure you get to know everything of me lolz. I am serious)

As what I said, it was the most peaceful relation I ever had. We never came out often, and if we did it was just a drinking session, the mamak one. And there, we exchange our ups and downs for hours. So it wasn’t weird if I say it takes me for hour to search picture of us. I tried my best; the latest picture we took was 3 or 4 years ago. See I am not lying; our relation is damn over peaceful.

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15 months relationship

They make me laugh like crazy-women by their stupid lame jokes. Yes they are silly and I love them because of it. Hehee.. Okay seriously, I knew them not really a long period but I just love being around them. We never share common things and we are totally different in attitude.

Silly-ness is what brings us together. Yes no joking, they won’t bother or care what’s happening around, as long they are having their very best moment. Lets face it, talk fast or else you won’t have chances to express yourself. Wahahah… they can really talk like there’s no tomorrow, as liked they were mute for years. Try to imagine someone talks her own things or problems and when she stops another one continue with her own things or problems. Is kind of funny, but that’s how we communicate.

They still cares when one of it bump into trouble, they will comfort, advice and give opinion and then there they begin they own story again. No choice but to accept it, it was another way of treatment too. Because then you will find out you’re laughing non stop with the lame jokes. Your problems had half been solved and your stomach gets pain for laughing too much so you forget what make you unhappy.

I don’t really know how we manage to get along but having them is one of the best things happened to me.

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So I think friendship wasn’t measure by period we know each others nor by common things we shared, is by how we get along, respect and cherish each other.

I love you, F.R.I.E.N.D.S!

My best friend, Insomnia

I’ve already lost count on how many sunrise I’d seen in one year time. And how many ways I tried to make myself fall asleep except for taking the pill. I felt useless now and had given up on it. What should I do then? Either forcing myself to sleep I rather accept the fact. Just face it!!

All I could remember, thru this one year I never had slept well more than 10times. It almost got me insane; thinking rolling on bed for 5hours only noticed the sky turned blue. The thoughts keep disturbing my mind for one year long. Perhaps this is the gene from my dad? He used to have insomnia too. Or perhaps taking the pill is the only solution for me?

Addicted!

I am addicted…AGAIN!! To named it fate or fool, whose can tell? Tell me. As if the fun can hold the lonesome for eternity. As if there’s no right and wrong. As if I would blinded myself and as if there’s no tomorrow. And as if all these really happen, I can keep addicted forever. How I wish it would happen…. in one fine day!

Get to know me better

Things I lurve
I have so many things I really lurve and the lists goes like it never end. So am gonna pick those I really lurve to heaps.


1) Sun and Beaches
yeah everyone lurve it. I mean whose not? Imagine yourself lying at the soft-sand beach, having the best book in your hand. The sunshine and the waves makes you so damn shiok. Yes I lurve nature…

2) Santorini Island
Sponsor me, sponsor me and i gonna lurve you till my very last breath. Lolz. Hey I am serious here. i am saving damn hard to make a visit there. But I found out the cost is much more expensive compare to others country. Is my BIG target..

It had been nominee of 7 wonders of nature. Glimpse thru a book, if I am not mistaken Santorini had the most beautiful sunset ever.

Click here to find out more: http://www.santorini.net/home.html

3) Dogssss
I am a dog fever. Any dog, any type, any breeds are welcome. They re for sure be my best buddies. Honesty I don’t treat dogs as animal, they re the bestfriend ever.

Hmm.. but hor, if I am given a chance to choose to stay with.. is gonna be Labrador Retriever or Siberian Husky. I lurve how smart they looks like.

4) Dream Car
Cars is just a transport for me. It really doesn’t matter what car I am driving, as long I don’t need to stick inside a sardine mini-bus with people I don’t even know. I am not high standard or bla blaa blaaa.. just that I hate how inconvenience and unsystematic the public transport in our country.

My dream car, hehee I know I know, I will only drive it in my dreams.

Okay come back to the fact since I know Audi TT not suitable for me. So here another car I fancy. Toyota caldina.. I lurve big car even thou I know it doesn’t suit me, but but… who cares!

5) Green and Turquoise Colour
Who said green is for Malay? I lurve green and turquoise (fyi turquoise is bluish-green)
Yes seldom Chinese like green and I am weird as what I told you ll. I have weird taste. Aaahhahahaha

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Things I hate
This time I don’t need to pick up those I hate most cuz I rarely hate things. And if I do so, it won’t be long. Honestly I don’t know how to hate people or things for that kind of long period. I don’t understand why I should hate it. Hahaha if one day you find out I been hating you like for years..okay say it for months, then you should buy lottery and I bet you will win the first prize. As what I remember I never hate people for more than a month.

1) Cat and Cats

Don’t ask me W.H.Y! I really dunno why. I found them cute at times too.

I don’t mean to hate them. Is just that dunno why I am very damn damn scared of them. Don’t let them walk near me, I will scream my lung out and cried like a baby child. Serious! And not to mention if they touched me, can’t imagine how impolite I gonna act. I tried to convince my inner side to get over it. Yet I stil not dare to touch them like how I treat those doggie. But for sure is getting better now days, at least I wont scream so loud now. Hehee.. yes got improvement. Big clap to myself...

Way Back Into Love

I’ve been living with a shadow overhead
I’ve been sleeping with a cloud above my bed
I’ve been lonely for so long
Trapped in the past, I just can’t seem to move on

I’ve been hiding all my hopes and dreams away
Just in case I ever need them again someday
I’ve been setting aside time
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can’t make it through without a way back into love
Oh oh oh

I’ve been watching but the stars refuse to shine
I’ve been searching but I just don’t see the signs
I know that it’s out there
There’s got to be something for my soul somewhere

I’ve been looking for someone to shed some light
Not just somebody just to get me through the night
I could use some direction
And I’m open to your suggestions

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can’t make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart again

I guess I’m hoping you’ll be there for me in the end

There are moments when I don’t know if it’s real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration
Not just another negotiation

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can’t make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart to you

I’m hoping you’ll show me what to do
And if you help me to start again
You know that I’ll be there for you in the end

Life is Beautiful

SLOW DANCE

Have you ever watched kids
On a merry-go-round?
Or listened to the rain
Slapping on the ground?
Ever followed a butterfly's erratic flight?
Or gazed at the sun into the fading night?
You better slow down.
Don't dance so fast
Time is short.
The music won't last
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Do you run through each day
On the fly?
When you ask How are you?
Do you hear the reply?
When the day is done
Do you lie in your bed
With the next hundred chores
Running through your head?
You'd better slow down
Don't dance so fast
Time is short.
The music won't last
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Ever told your child, We'll do it tomorrow?

And in your haste,Not see his sorrow?

Ever lost touch,

Let a good friendship die

Cause you never had time

To call and say,'Hi'

You'd better slow down.

Don't dance so fast.

Time is short.

The music won't last

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When you run so fast to get somewhere

You miss half the fun of getting there.

When you worry and hurry through your day,

It is like an unopened gift...

Thrown away.

Life is not a race

Do take it slower

Hear the music

Before the song is over.

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-: a poem by a teenager with cancer :-

[ Love Your Life ]

The final ending

***HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR***

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Lets straight to the point. Old people love to said so, settle those bad things and don’t bring them along with you to New Year.

SO So soo…
I am gonna left all those unhappy things behind and move forward with only happy things..

Before that let me include this songs here.. which break my heart to heaps. (for one last time)
Unfortunate things don’t always row downhill forever. Sun will rise again one day..

After bad things end, good things will come to us for sure. Bright side will come to me soon.. Wakakaaka and I am not gonna let those previous stupid f*cking years come back to me ever again. Please DON’T!!! GO GO GO

Okie.. now I want to dedicate this songs to everyone who re reading this. Hope everyone have a new beginning of FABULOUS & GLAMOROUS new year. And lotsa LOVE..

Journey throughout 2008

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a toast from “Veenie Wong”
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What I can say now, It wasn’t easy and is a damn hard one.
2008 is a hard journey in self-development, self-improvement, self-appreciation and self-realization. The whole personal process of growing is cruelness.

But I find that during a time of transition, everything seems more ‘meaningful.’ It’s as if your senses become heightened and brightened. Sunsets and sunrises appear more beautiful… Greens look greener, blues look bluer and the presence of your families and friends become SO precious!!! The changing process helps me see things in different angle.

The world is full of unexpected twists and turns. Nothing comes without a price and I am lucky the reward turn out in a good way. I don’t know when it happened, or even how it happened. But I did it. I grew up to someone wiser, understanding, and strong in heart. And I know it was all worthwhile.

The moving-out experience

I really don’t feel like using my brain to write a proper or special blog about it coz I didn’t sleep for the whole night until now, are 12noon guys… But I somehow wanted to note it down as this is the first time in my life I ever experienced those incidents. Come back to think of it, was kind of funny stories to me and peers. (think you girls felt the same too, hopefully so) hahaaahahaa

Thursday night (before the incident happened)
Chloe: hey u free on Friday? Come out, licia need some help here. Is urgent and a long story. Lets come out and discuss.

Vnie: ok 8pm meet u girls at old town.

Friday (the day come)
Karyn: where u? we re at old town discussing the case. Come faster….bla blaa blaaa

Vnie: ok ok

When I reached, licia karyn chloe n jessie is already there chatting seriously.
And here I get to know a so-called-serious-and-urgent case. ** licia is renting a room and the landlord asked her to moved out immediately. Accusing she stole her belonging which she didn’t. ok problem is the landlord had problem paying back the deposit. So here we head to the house and pack…

While we wait for the landlord to come home and pay the deposit as licia had informed her earlier that she will move out that night. We re having the happy and crazy girly packing.. and the landlord reached. She urged us to move everything out before she pays the deposit.

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And the drama begins. She said she don’t have cash for licia and insisted to pay licia by cheque. As we would never know if it was bounce cheque so we insisted we want the deposit by cash. (FYI from what we heard from the security the landlord always have problem with those who rent her room. She even don’t want to pay the cash to another guy who rent her room) so we want CASH!!!

We wait and wait… and she don’t even bother to entertain us and ask us to wait there till tomorrow 7am. To cut the story short… we moved licia thingy out and here we reached police station at 2sumthing. Make police report and head to kl to get karyn’s car. As the police asked us to go back to the house and get our deposit back by cash at tomoro 7am or else…. So karyn leave us. Me licia and chloe went to nearby old town and there we waited till 630am as our car is full with licia-thingy. Wtf… we were in darn dead sleepy-dirty-exhausted mood. So we were doing some clean up and refreshing in the washroom. Lol.. I knew is awful but come on we don’t have others choice.

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645am.. we left old town and head to ampang to collect the deposit. And settle everything and head to kepong. You could never know how it feels like driving with half blundered condition in middle of the highway.

Yes and we make it there safety. Carry licia thingy is the saddest things we faced. See only 3 half dead girls with an empty soul. Hmmm.. my brain suddenly turned empty. Ok then me and chloe gone to ss2 for breakfast around 9am. And reached home around 1030am.

Honestly I would like to sleep like a pig now. When I finished taken shower is already 12noon.. as I need to wake at 1pm for some work, I decided not to sleep and update my blog here.

Huh.. End of the story.
Hey it was much more different situation on the spot. Those were the scary yet funny things happened:-

scary-story of police lock-up created by karyn
(karyn I think you watched too much of hong kong movie larr)

girls arguing at the road side for more than once
(I think this incident make us a stronger friendship. Am I right girls??)

moving licia thingy while someone shouted “be fast be fast..move move don’t stop” makes our plan run-out. (har.. I never know what they had plan that make them planned it from noon to evening..lol *O* )

a sudden visitor that makes our moving-out day more happening (not to mention it here, think you guys know what lar. Btw really thanks to gopi and nasrul; you guys are great)

the funny story from karyn when she was driving chloe’s car in a blur and rushing condition. (cant imagine her driving in a second gear all the way at highway, dunno which is the light, window buttons, and even horns, and the funniest is chloe’s hand phone was left inside the car with karyn. Hahaaa)

And a lot more scary, crazy and funny stories which I can never tell everything here. Ok girls, I really love the outing with you’ll but next time please do inform me earlier for something like this. I am a low blood pressure child and I cant take big case like this or else I will faint. Or next time go gather more boyss to help and protect us ma. Heheee.. please and hopefully no more next round. Call me up for cny’s karaoke session ya.. muacks

Thanks and happy reading.. heheehe