Life in Month September

**StrawBerry Farm**

Personal-Strawberry-Land

Pluck and Eat all as we want

** Cameron Hills**

Where we viewed the whole Cameron

OMG time’s passes liked a speedster. Been wasting a lot times on trips and clubbing. After whole full month of playing and partying, I am still playing and partying on October. **Sigh! As what Babe Bel said we should back on work track on October. (Silly Babe.Bel said September is month of joys. So we should play hard on this month) Ok here comes month of work *October. A little promises to me for a better work done. Yes keep my promised.

Ya i am been enjoying too much recently and more to comes too. Have a tasty seafood dinner with Mahjong’s gangs. *TechRealtors Company’s trip at Cameron last week that stays at haunted-feel-bungalow.
This coming Raya holidays am going to Penang with Mahjong’s Gang. MBF’s gathering for a very healthy outing to Shah Alam for cycling games. Hmm.. I will try to upload those pictures in next blog.
Not to forget this, is not a good thing to mention here but I should control on this habit before it ruin my life. I learn and kind-of-abit-addicted to gamble on this whole months. Learn some mahjong and ‘chor dai dee’ games (which I don’t know before this.LOL).

I should go do my packing for my trip. **Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri to all Malaysians and enjoy your holidays to heaps.

randomness

i should back on track before i ruined my life. been clubbing, drinking alot and late sleep lately; end up lossing my pride. STOP! needed some controller; focus back to my target.

and here are some random pictures of my lifes...

**Claire.Claribel.Veenie-Scarlet & Velvet**

**Hanging around Sunway with all my beloved girlfriends.Dinner and karaoke session**

**CANADA team fireworks@putrajaya**

overtimesss

Got to work overtime without overtime pay again. Is been a week I didn’t go home on time. sigh~ how come my works never seem to finish? I started don’t like end and early of the month now. I need an assistant, I am serious. Perhaps I am blogging a lot, uses too much time here. But is the best way for me to burn my stress. Think I should go and continue with my work.. sob*sob*

**I know I am doing the wrong thing. Seriously am not trying to abandon anyone. I am suffering and am struggling here too. Please allow me to be selfish for once, just once. Gain me the power to fight for my own goods. Stay away from me if you mean good to me. Your existence is making me suffers.

my very first time...

Sudden urge of posting this song for everyone here. I don’t really understand what the lyrics mean; but this song is somewhat brought me back lots of the past. How come songs can reminds us those sweet and sour moments? This is the very first song of my first love, first man I longed to loves; my first of everything. Times really passed too fast, before I have time to recalls those blissful memories.. I found out I almost forgot those kind of feeling. Is been half year now, is not really a long period for me. Let’s say it this way, because I really did let go and I think this is the main reason why memories faded so fast.

You know what I am really proud of myself? I noticed I am damn good in finding happiness for my own self when I am not feeling any good either. **Hehee.. I think this sound good on me “Im the type of girl that can be so hurt but can still look at you & smile the type of girl who is willing to brighten your day even if I can’t brighten my own”. Im not self praise here but I really am this kind of girl **smiling** for everything I struggle I learn something new about myself. Something new into my new live.. Life still goes on without him.

“有所得就有所失 有所失就有所得”
“人要懂得舍得，不舍不得，舍了才得”

Losing him was the worst moment I had gone thru. Heart aches, broken into pieces. It really hurt so much. But if I am given a chance; I won’t change any of it. This is the best for us. I lose someone important but I gained more than anything or anyone can replace. I found myself again, learned that families is always important, found out true friends, my own career. Don’t you think my life is greater without him around? Hmm.. yup I felt the same too. So you should know why I never regret of letting him go?

Have anyone ask you this question before “When was the last time you are feeling happiness? Last two days I was browsing some girl’s blog, read on this topic. Suddenly I felt blissful, I hardly remember when it was but I can clearly remember how it felt. I should **thanks him for the very short moments of the happiness and left a deep remarks in my heart. So what can I say? Let’s keep those memories… feel the things before it faded.

I actually in a very rush time now. My friends are waiting for me at café, another appointment at bar club. Sigh~ I am real tired. Ok I need to go now..lets update you all again. Hope my friend wasn’t reading this. If yes, I am sooo sorry babe. **Muacks

Your living is determined not so much by what life brings to you as by the attitude you bring to life; not so much by what happens to you as by the way your mind looks at what happens.
John Homer Miller

farewell for now

thanks for de journey

it might not last that long

but that was de most meaningful and memorable journey in my life

it means more than word can describe

farewell my dear friend

is de end of our journey

is time to split

i will always remember what you'd taught

because you will always stay close inside my heart

till our journey will once again come...

i am here waiting;

with a heart that's tried and true

faithfully